Fun + Yummy!

hahaha today woke up at 8.30am la! so early coz i like slept 3am last 'morning' hahaha! then less than 6 hours of sleep then go training... obvious the outcome is the shots are damn bad hahaha! i huo gai la... then after training went to play photohunt again at the SAFRA bowling alley! this time better hahaha! Top 3 plus 5th, 6th, 7th all AJC SHOOTING! haha we more and more pro liao in Photohunt haha! So fun! Bonding session in such a way too! Somemore it is not very expensive! 50cents one credit then we quite pro so play quite a while de k hahahaha!

After Photohunt went to Northpoint to eat Sakae Sushi! hahaha! U guys sure think i very rich right? no lo got pp subsidies de hahaha Then no buffet ma so eat how much pay how much but i still eat a lot! Favourite is the Fried Tofu and Baby Squid Sushi! So nice la! Got fried Salmon too! wa i ate until so full lo! hahaha! The varieties there not a lot la... somehow somewhere looked the same... but as mentioned above some stuffs there very nice! Still got one more! The Soft crab Roll! wa shuang man hahaha! Tako Yaki also not bad! Haha! Yesterday dinner i think i haven share, we shooting pp ate Zhu Chao (Rice+various dishes) haha! So shuang! 5 dishes eh then all got 3 my favourite! the kopitiam just opposite SAFRA their Zhu Chao is really not bad hahaha!

Tml noon is training again! Going again for the best! Although shoot like shit but not giving up! We can't control how others will shoot, we can only do our best in doing what we can control = ourselves! Yeah! Status Quo! Focus! etc etc.... way to Go! hahaha!

Status Quo!

Today all my time is devoted to shooting! Thats the way man haha! I woke up at 3pm! Wow sleep like for 12hours! Shuang man! haha! Then went down for training that suppose to start at 4.30pm but in the end started at 5pm cause of B & C Division Shooting Competition! Then trained okay la for grouping shots but for single shots its like my gosh... worse u know wat? When The Z**** come in and organise the finals, i shot like 4/5/6 hahaha! So irritating her voice! She give advice also waste my time cause she dun even know my problem... just generally give... like she 100% know everything so pro like that... whatever la! Nationals i'm gonna shun from her and really from tml onwards train hard mentally so that one aspect is wont be affected by her noise! haha!

This time in shooting it looks like an individual game... stand there just AIM! which is so so wrong! It is not about the Aiming, but the Stability, Mental Strength/Determination and Consistency! It is really a lot on the mental man... so good can train up my mental then apply on other areas too! Then really so Grateful to people like Pei Lin, Coach Jia and Joseline! Always there to help me solve my problems, scolding me, teaching me so much things that i have learnt! Then technique and mental wise also got improve! They are just great man haha! If i perform well for nationals (no need win) it is really thanks to them! They are also so concerned about the team! Always sparing a thought for us, headache about us, think think think work hard too for us! I represent my team and thank you guys!

Today Adrienne say something i think very cool her tone hahaha! During the point before trigger, have to make sure that muscle tension and any movement is Zero! This means that attaining Status Quo! Then trigger isolate, that only the index finger moves! Then the shot will be smoothly delivered! So cool hor what tension zero then status quo hahaha! Shooting is not jus shoot shoot shoot lo.... got loads to know and learn and apply at the same time! Great being exposed so such a sport! Countdown one week to my nationals!

And good thing is this coming week will be a academically slack week for me cause most of the time i will not be in classes for lessons! haha! This includes Monday too! haha! Shuang man!

Go AJC Shooting! Pull Pull Pom! Cheekuu Down! We will Follow Through Together!

PhotoHunt!

haha today was a super long day for me man... but good thing is... it is the last paper of the mid year exams! Although really screwed la for all papers (except GP which is okay...) haha! I dun wanna elaborate or complain or whatever cause my mood now is Focused on Shooting! Nothing else! The Power of focus to work hard for a Miracle! Haha after my chemistry papers i went the Central Manpower Base at Depot road (Tiong Bahru there la) for NS Medical Checkup haha! Thank God got my best brother Chengen to accompany me leh! We same day and time slot! haha! Then went thru series of checkups like Chest X-ray, Blood Test, Urine Test, Height & Weight, Blood Pressure Test, Audio Test (Hearing frequency, Eye-sight test, ECG test wow its really alot! But the one that took most of my test is the series of like IQ, pattern, maths, physics tests la! Sit in the computer lab and click click press press for like one hour plus at least i guess? But heng today not a lot pp so very fast like 3hrs done with everything le! Haha!

NS wa so fast coming le! It will be a physical 2years ahead and hope for the best! Haha! That one next year then say la haha A level dou haven over but academics aside! haha! Then after the medical check up i went down to Yishun SAFRA for training! Today training didnt went that well cause i was so tired and sleepy... cant concentrate and body not functioning that well! Nber mind tml can wake up a lil later then training in the afternoon! Somemore tml going to have dinner with my shooting team yeah! Btw today training was kinda fun la! Although we dry-firing in the multi-purpose room, we crap and chat haha so fun! Then after that went arcade play Bishi-Bashi! Then also got go the highlight of the day, Photohunt in the bowling alley! Haha! Got like 8 of us from shooting team (including some other shooting friends) play the Photohunt! We put in 4 credits and played 5 rounds u know why? We won the 1st record and became the new record holder so bonus round! hahaha! Then amond the top 10 got 5 ranking (1st, 3rd, 5th, 6th, 7th) all ours - AJC SHOOTING hahaha! So fun! Hope no one breaks it if not we will be back! haha!

Exams are over and 4 days so called holidays! Next week will be great too! Going thru exams papers i will make sure no matter what shit comes out from the teachers' mouth i will ignore and have a good mood! haha! I said so many times yet really feeling nervous for nationals! 1week's time my gosh! haha!

For this coming week, Monday - Youth Day, Tuesday - School (all lectures! yeah no tut!), Wednesday - help Spot shots in Yishun Safra for Air Rifle Men (1045am release from school!), Thursday - slack day (nth much... haha!), Friday - My Competition day! So no need come school at all!

*I always hoped that I will be one to you but i think i have been hoping too much and know it wont be possible.. So i think i'll jus be alone that's the best la... no expectations so wont be disappointed or wont be emo... i wish i wish but its wish, doesnt mean will come true... no matter what, you guys, especially you, will always be of great importance to me...

Old Memories!

haha the song played in my blog now is from 福满人间 (Fu Man Ren Jian)! hahaha! This show super nice! I very enthu the 游泳库 (You Yong Ku) = Swimming Trunks hahahaha! A character in the show! That show super funny and wow meaningful too! Now Mediacorp Celebrating 25years of Channel 8 so they showing some old shows in the 1990s! Now i think showing 搞笑行动 2003 (Gao Xiao Xing Dong)! Also got 金枕头 (Golden Pillow) haha a drama series! All these shows very nice but one of my favourite show is 福满人间 and 播音人 (Bo Yin Ren)! Haha 播音人 got the Yan Dao whici when i'm young always wanna impersonate and dreamt to be like him hahahaha! Yan Dao means handsome k! hahaha! Then the theme song for 福满人间 is also called 福满人间 which simply jus means 'prosperity and bliss everywhere' hmmm something like that la hahaha! Got chance Channel 8 please replay these two shows mentioned above haha! Actually got loads of other so nice shows in the 1990s la... now the shows mostly i feel dun cater to me... like watch already will just forget hahaha! Not as nice as those in the past! Wa miss those days when no need study, slack, everyday just star at the television from 7pm to 10pm hahaha!

Tml i will be FREE!

Yes indeed 4 out of 5 subjects down! Haha! So excited for tml 11am! i mean of course the scary thing is when i meet my teachers during tutorials but thats later then say! haha! Parent-Teacher meeting is another thing but haha whatever la! Tml chemistry hope will get at least an E! If not that Tuuu will ganna me liao! haha!

Happy Birthday Poahsin! Haha! poor you eh your birthday in the midst of holidays! haha! but nber mind k! all your other presents will come in soon! haha! stay cheerful always brother!

Wa i finally got new slippers... my father wore it to work and broke it (the red black one lo...) and i got another pair! haha! He knows i'm concerned so... haha! next time things i dnu wan better make opportunity to make my pa destroy or damage it then i will have new stuffs free!

Haiz i still feel so sian coming to school... after exams le its another round of term studies... worse its intensive revision.. things will go fast, tough and wow i dunno how... no more fun liao... ya i know everything after As... scarly i may not live till that day how hahahaha!

First Day of School!

Yes indeed it is the first day after the one month study break (suppose to study but too bad) haha! 2 out of 5 subjects down! 3 more to go! How i wish all 5 subjects are taken today at one shot... no point spreading out haha! coz the results are going to be the same... somemore waste time... hmmm watever la... the scary thing is not exams... the sian thing is exams coz how is it feels like sitting there for two three hours stoning? back to the scary thing... it is the week after exams! coz u are going for tutorials where you will face the kings and queens of hell, with their book of death (no life de) and judgement staff haha! They i think are the no mercy type la... dun score well = bad students, score well = good students... slippery slope yet they dun give a damn to it...

Watever la i am going training later! wanna really bia for this week and the start of next week before nationals... just excited yet worrying... coz my average (even personal best) is not a competitive one la.. so really going for a miracle! Aiming for Northzone Champion Team and Nationals top four! Aim ma whether can get it anot not only depends on one person... its a team work! Just do my best and get what i deserve can liao!

Btw this thurs is the NS medical checkup thingy plus series of pattern and IQ tests la... Redhill leh so far.. somemore the entire thing takes 4-5 hours... what the hell so long! then after that got to bia down for training by cab... expensive but no choice for the sake of shooting and nationals... we are the first batch of pistol shooters of AJC (all along only air rifle...) so must produce results so that the fire and spur goes on! AJC shooting team was once champion in both air rifle women and men categories k... like 7 years ago in 2000 i think... what happen man hahaha! This yr hope can sort of a light of hope haha!

Giving My Best!

Wow holidays is indeed ending! two more days! actually nothing to be happy or sad about the end of this holidays. But i'm nervous yet excited for Naitionals A Division Shooting Championships! It will be from 4th to 6th July 2007 (Wednesday-Friday)! My detail is one of the last few, on friday noon! It is the fate determining process! haha! Trained since last year (too bad serious training only this year start), it is like not much experience in pistol shooting and needa compete with those experienced pp! Got National Youth Team Shooters also man in like schools like National Junior College! But nothing to be afraid of! I believe in miracles hahaha! Just wish myself all the best and hoping i will peak and perform my best on that day can le! I've been training very very hard i believe for this nationals especially in this holidays where almost everyday i will be down at the SAFRA shooting range to train!

Another concern pp keep asking me is mid yrs! Sorry and sad to say now is 2 days left to the first paper liao. Mid yrs will be screwed. very screwed. people keep complaining no time to finish the stuffs they needa study when i haven started on subjects like Maths (which i have zero knowledge and concept?) and Geog (tons of stuffs... haha). Bio haven complete but at least read thru a few sets of notes like 2 weeks ago and chem hahaha i think its like strips and straps of concept ba! Yes i know june hols is the last long study break before As and it needs to be utilised fully. But to me, nationals is more important... not that studies i heckcare but it is really important to me.. same level of importance as A levels! I trained one year plus = i studies one year plus for As. Yet As and its prelims is in September, my nationals in NOW! If i jus wanna strip and strap anyhow go for nationals praying for miracle and doing nothing to show how much i want it (no need top few, just need to achieve my best), i must well dun train at all? Studies i am NOT giving up jus that until 6th July is over, my Focus is really on shooting! After that, my House stuffs also end liao so will settle down and Chiong!

A lot of people may nto understand my priorities and why i choose to do it this way... lots of people are already mugging their way to their desired As... me? so called slacking (as long as u not studying it is slacking)... Mid yrs is jus two days later, i know it is screwed and i wont regret and choice of priority even i screwed up also in nationals next next week.. At least i fought for it. Pp may say isnt it double failure? Achieve in none? I will say that failures you will meet in your life.. sooner of later even perhaps before your deathbed but the truth is you did your best and results does matter yet not crucial. Happy jiu hao thats my principle for now haha! The next prob will be the teachers. I guess (not assume but with instincts to say most prob...) all of them will be utterly disappointed with me, etc wanna meet my parents or wat so ever.. i dun really care.. where got student choose to disappoint teachers de? Very fun ah? But what i got to say is written above liao so ya lo... i will chiong after nationals means i will.. no question abt it.. Even i get a CCC for As i will be contented.. if it is wat i deserved. those worked hard plus humble and etc got AAA i will be happy for them..

To my Shooting Team who read this blog:
All the way people! Last lap liao! A lot sports CCA except us and track & field has finish their race! It is our turn! We may not be the cream of the crop but we can fight for a miracle! We have worked hard these months! It is time to show our grades and give our report card! A dazzling proud one k! Remember the problem is nto technqiue le! It is all in our mind! Thats the different in our Sport! Ten points action will result is ten points results! (By Adrienne!) Jia You!

To my other friends and closed ones, just hope you guys will understand my priorities and choices. It is a race that i wanna finish well.. i really want to..

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30hrs Famine!

i'm finally back! felt like its so long... coz when u are suffering time passes so slow hahaha! When the famine starts at 2pm yesterday i was like so excited! I'm gonna make it 30hrs! When its like 7hrs... my stomach can't take it start rumbling liao hahahaha! Then wa i tell u my mind keep on thinking of my chocolates, food WA! Then the next day was even worse when we do such physical stuffs like collecting newspapers! Tough job... elaborated further below haha!

First Day! got a few sharing talks on Poverty and AIDS! Very informative and heard lots of sad stories... i felt so hopeless that i cant do much help financially... cant be there in that country at that moment to offer help but at least i have the heart and i can do something in Singapore! Then got a poor little boy from Cambodia came to Singapore to do sharing which made people cried cause its like so sad his life... mother and him abused by father (drink addict) and both mum and him collect Rubbish earning only $1 a day to live... my gosh... it's like so poor thing... and wats the cruel fact? There are millions out there having the same fate as him or even worse... yet what are we living on? 3-5meals a day, clean water, wan chocs got chocs (guilty haiz...) then transportation good etc... wa we are really blessed to be born in a developed country!

We also played a ROLE Play game where first all 1000 of us separated into 8 developing countries, for me i'm in Lesotho (Africa)! Then we choose 4 Ministers of diffrerent department like Food & Water, Manpower, Health and Education! Also one President! Then besides the government the rest of the country is split into families! I'm one of the family head and my family is the most enthu! Wa super efficient and effective and fun hahahaha! We experienced a stiumlated version of poverty that we have only each $2 to start, and we have to run around Republic Poly to find jobs, get education especially for my kids and get water and food, vaccination! Lots of Objectives to fulfil! Then total my family 9 members including me and we ran around, tempted to do Illegal Jobs offered like Prostitution, Drug Trafficking and Organ Donating or go get education to do decent jobs like Fishing, Farming etc haha! Of course it pays more for illegal jobs so we too despo one sell organ, a few do drug trafficking but NO Prostitution la! Got Integrity k! hahaha! Then we family so united! We work hard, then go vaccination together, a 6 ganna AIDS hahahaha! One blind somemore! Then i the father have to get them cured, etc etc hahaha! Then we are the group which get the most number of water! That is the crucial thing other than education! Then in the end among 8 countries, 2 countries won which one is Lesotho! Yeah! Haha! Then we got a prize: Vitasoy Chocolate (Cant give us food so drink as prize but we despo and hungry till enjoy it damn a lot haha).

Then the next day highlight is Newspaper collection! haha! We are sent to Tampines Avenue 7! Then we are told to do 5 blocks as 3 families (including mine!) We collect and crap and laugh and smell lunch from the apartment we went (torturing...)! Then when we finish the 5 blocks good news is we finish liao! Bad news... 8 more to go! Wa we almost died hahaha! But its so fun doing that as my group really enthu and wa so fun! Cooperative man! So fun!

Finally after concert we countdown, everyone so excited! Then we count down 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0! Wa we screamed like siao! haha! 30hrs of hunger eh! For me its like wa tell u a challenge man... haha! But my family so bonded and enthu that we went Pepper Lunch together! Haha! Coz 1 days plus only the camp so a lot other families nber go out jus bye bye haha! My group got ACJC, SAJC, RP and AJC people! got to know their school! Which is obvious more rah rah and hoo hah compared to our school... haha! Those wanna know i can share lots of stuffs! hours and hours of crap and stuff to u guys we chatted all in jus one day plus! Really la we keep talkin talking lots of funny stuffs! Get to hear from me soon live! hahaha!

Last thing is so embarassing... i was interviewed by Mediacorp! Appearing on tonight news on Channel U and 8! Even Channelnewsasia which i dunno when... worse... tml 7am i think and 5.15pm i also on a Radio interview (recorded during the camp today) on 958FM! Wa... tell u i spoke in mandarin okay for the channel u and 8 and 958FM... and eng for cna... WA! really sia sue liao... i never bathe at all thru out the camp la... nber comb hair also... wa then appear on tv... hahaha!

No Food for More than a Day!

Wa tml i going the 30hr famine camp! Reporting at Republic Poly in the morning! As the name of the camp suggests... i'm gonna part with Food for 30hrs! My Gosh! But for charity okay la haha! One good thing about the camp is can work and play and chat with Poahsin! And Eileen! also got Renes! Also got Candy! Got Xue Nie! hahahaha! Hope it will be fun... kinda worried it will be a disaster! hahaha! People out there please miss me! hahaha!

My clock is turning...

Wa now its going to 4am sooner or later and i'm not asleep! my gosh! Then i waking up everyday at 2plus pm the earliest! My biological clock is turning the opposite way and i dun see the morning sun! Must try to switch it back before school reopens if not gotta suffer big time! Btw later will be my pistol A division reselection competition for school team! Hope everything will go well...

20/06 birthday coming soon in a few days! I know after that exams also coming soon in a few days but birthday eh! somemore we are blessed with such a special name! It takes a thousand years later from last year to have another 20/06 k! so let's treasure! I think most prob wont play whole day la cause u know exams are 'important' hahahaha! So at least a meal like dinner together! We can chat and catch up! It's long since the whole class appear as a whole class!

I'm so Full!

Wa today woke up at 2 plus pm! haha! Then slsck slack slack till evening i went for my cousin's Wedding Dinner! Now let the Mr. Gourmet Steven Toon critic and tell ya pp how was the food and his own opinion hahaha! It was a 9 course Chinese Wedding dinner!

1. Roast Meat Combination Platter (Leng Pan)
This was super nice haha cause lots of variety but in small amounts! Got sweet and spicy baby squid, Spring roll, Ba Gua also have hahaha! Then got the cocktail salad prawn thingy haha! The WOW thing is the music play then the waiters and waitress parade around the whole restaurant with the platter la haha! Then went up the stage, pose and smile and show the platter to the people then come down and give the 'Prestige' tables first haha! Of course the Weds' parents etc and good thing i'm at one of the 6 prestige table la! So got to eat first hahahaha!

2. Shark Fin Soup with Crab Meat and Pearl Mushroom
Wa this one is nice! But too bad each person only one small bowl (standard la of course haha)!

3. Steamed Fresh Pomfret in Hong Kong Style
This one is super nice! I also choke myself with the fine fish bones haha! The fish is super big and fresh! Dun have the 'Xing' smell haha! somemore got my aunt and mum serve me eh hahaha!

4. Yam Ring with Fresh Scallop
This one of course eat scallop la! The most expensive and nice part of the whole dish... the Yam ring is the main constituent (add volume to the dish) but i still prefer the scallops and ate quite a bit! haha!

5. Braised Chicken with Eight Treasure (Ba Bao Ji)
This one i smart enough to pick the right part of the chicken to eat haha! It's definitely the part near the butt la! Coz breast meat so tough haha! But overall i like the eight treasure (ba bao) which is the content of the chicken haha! The mushroom thingy ba haha!

6. Fragrant Cereal Prawn (Mai Pian Xia)
This is one of my favourites of the whole course! haha! I ate the most among the rest at my table! The prawn is big and wow because the cereal is so nice la! haha! Worse u know wat? When my table's plate of this dish finish, my 2nd aunt say her table people cant finish and brought like half a plate of the prawns to my table! then of course i didnt let it off la! Yum Yum!

7. Braised Sea Cucumber with Bailing Mushroom
This one eat till i laugh like dunno wat. coz other than the sea cucumber and vegetable got that bailing mushroom ma then slices of it look like abalone! Then my 4th aunt say its abalone, my mum believe and i eat and feedback it tasted like mushrooms wat then they still say abalone haha! Until my cousin (da gor) say its mushroom haha then its so Ma Lu la... haha!

8. Fragrant Lotus Leaf Rice
This is the worse part... where got people eat RICE after like 7 dishes? of course all the tables there cant finish... then the Singaporean spirit appear haha! My 4th aunt the first even! All take away (ta bao)! hahaha so funny la! Wat the... then i so paiseh somemore sit beside my 4th aunt... hahaha!

9. Hot Yam Paste with Gingko Nuts (Dessert)
This one hot hot sweet sweet one is best to end the 9 course dinner! I ate two servings even hahaha! Nice!

After the whole course wa i super duper full la... bloated till like dunno wat... i drank orange juice through out the stay there... then everytime i drink 1/3 of the glass the waitress nber fail to refill! then i keep drinking and drinking and nber ending man! It's like i say dunno how many times thank you liao hahaha! Then the interesting thing of the night is the sitting arrangement haha! My cousin's family one side, the husband's family and relatives the other side then got where to sit, etc according to status (family status)... its so urghhh... haha! But enjoy la coz the food la! hahaha!

Eat and Eat!

These days i have been eating quite a lot of junk food hahaha! To me not really junk la but not having much of proper meals haha! Esp Chocolates! Yeah! Ate MEIJI Milk Chocolate Bar the flat flat big one wa super nice! It's $1.65 from Cold Storage! Also ate a lot if DARS Chocolates! haha! $2.20 from 7-11 (It's a store and more!) but if you guys wan go Cold storage ($1.95) or Uncle Tidbits ($1.90) haha! Ate the Dark Choc and Milk Choc Flavour! Then also ate Cadbury Chocs! The One tube one (Norm and Peppermint flavour one?) Chocolates is my favourite! Something i cant live without! Rice can dun eat but not chocs! haha! Chocolate rocks! I think i will be trying other flavours this boring hols!

Got people ask me Mid yrs i not worried meh? coz i kinda slack and no motivation to study esp alone... i was thinking haiz worse to worse fail mid yrs, then A levels also do badly, then go be road sweeper lo! Cleanliness of the country is by those road cleaners k! hahaha! wat to do? training these days is not that fantastic... senior and assistant coach say i over train... i was like so lousy liao of course must train... but haiz dunno how leh! Nationals confirmed is on the 4-6 July! And my detail will most probably be on the 5th or 6th! It's hard work, sweat, tears for one year k! I dun wanna lose this competition. not say so eager to be national champ but at least a national 4th? that hard work will pay off? those top few positions let those talented college take ba hahaha!

Emotional and Psychological battle now and then haha! Training is that i keep on being frustrated la so mus learn to be calm (say easy do hard but still must try!). Emotionally is cause so lonely la! I mean of course sms got chat a lil (sms receive also drastically dropped... all busy or mugging ba...) and msn got chat (but i keep disturbing pp i realise)... but ya lo its different from meeting out to eat, talk and crap and play de ma... hahaha! Initially was planned to go swimming with brothers? but ya one MIA and busy, the other also busy and need time for other stuffs i guess... also is planned to go malaysia chiong but no one go with me... passport already extended to 2009 lo ya but of no use now.. then wanna go out also no one wanna go with me.. go study? of course will have but its like random pp and those i wanna study with also cant hahaha.. Then its like i read a poem or something like that, that says about love and care wow so emo haha! It says that if one loves and cares, he or she will always show it cause love and care requires action and initiative not just using phrases of i love u, i care for u etc but do nothing. Wa so true hahaha! and a eqn found! Care = One way, Care Square = Two Way = Love

Tml will be waking up in the afternoon haha cause now its like 3plus am and i'm not asleep? my biological clock is like turning opposite liao... die... now morning i sleep, midnight i awake... my gosh... hahaha! Wake up le do wat leh? sian... but at least at night going for my cousin's wedding dinner so got things to do...

To you: people say i dumb yet i know i care for you is not because of how will you reciprocate in return. you will always be my wgb.

To you: the frenship is strained but i hope that there is a second chance that it can be brought back to where it was.. if it doesnt... yup i'm prepared for it.

To you: you have let go but i still love you.. i wont ask for anything in response just the least is wanna see you happy. and yup you are.

True Friends

True Friends

fend off fiends

Fights for you

Stay with you

Stick with you

Share with you

True Friends

Will not pretend

Will protect you

Will weep with you

Laugh with you

Remember you

True Friends

Empathise with you

Brighten your day

Set you free to be your self

Will not betray

True Friends

Over backwards bend

Go extra mile

Make you smile

Pray with you

Pray for you

Tell you the truth

In love, cover you

Will love and love

Will give and give

And will forgive

True Friends

Will feed your dreams

Will be warm and

Will not harm

Will not stab

Never a drab

Say what they mean

And mean what they say

Will use your things

And not use you

By: Anonymous

Alone... Sian...

Wa the hols are really sian man! but wat i felt is so alone! i miss so many pp! cant see you guys... miss you Chengen! miss you Kelly! miss you Poahsin! Miss you Liyi! Miss you Susie! Miss you my fellow good frenz! e pp see is only my shooting mates... then this hols nber go out and play cause no one wanna go with me! sian sian sian! 2 more weeks... then plus one week more i guess coz exams everyone will be so self centered as usual... aft that when teachers give out papers and stress the class again no more fun... the class will jus cont mugging... wrong is the entire school...

Fate Determining...

Got news from coach that other than Air Rifle Women, the rest of the three categories Air Rifle Men, Air Pistol Men & Women will have a reselection competition to choose the 3 best shooters from the team to represent and shoot for Nationals... this dunno is good news or bad news for me.. as you guys who read my previous few entries.. my training hasnt been that well... frankly speaking not good la.. so concerning me, its a competition between 4 of us to choose best 3 to go for nationals.. two rounds of competition (actual comp 60 shots), this coming friday and sunday.. see how la of course hope can get in!

These few days also became very impatient and short tempered... dunno wats wrong also.. so sian and just nothing to laugh about seriously these days... i think you guys out there enjoying ur hols ba. watch movie, met up with frenz to go for meals or have fun, study together, etc. but for me jus different la... nber mind... laugh here ba hahahahaha at least i'm still surviving..

Hopeful

I believe it is not the end. As long as nationals not over and results is not out... that doesnt mean i'm gonna lose... i'm trying my best.. getting my technique and mental strength right... i will get it somehow.. training nowadays really very bad... bad till i dunno where is the problems... but i'm not giving up.. already so many failures in my life has happened in such a short period of time... there will be success somewhere... and i believe in miracles...

at least shooting is within my own control... not like relationships of any kind, which require two hands to clap...

2 weeks left

Yup although it is like 3 weeks left to nationals but the thing is the week just before nationals is the mid-yr common test week. i think for a lot of my teammates mid yrs is more important but for me its definitely nationals. Why? firstly i'm not a shooter that is competition standard yet, inconsistent and not good la basically. Then next, mid yrs do well does not equal A levels do well. Mid yrs do badly doesnt equal A levels do badly... of course the june hols is the last long break to catch up on studies... i will try catching up as much but haiz i really wanna do well for nationals. if didn't do well i wont have the motivation and mood to study for my As! haiz... jus got that feeling A levels will be so screwed de... watever la...

do u know u have an important place in my heart? i think you know... but thats not true for the other way round... yup not true...

i'm the black sheep today...

Whole day at SAFRA... help out in NUS Invitational shoot... i shot at the first detail... suppose and expected to be 540... in the end... worse than last monthly shoot... lousy till i am so disappointed with myself... dragged my team down... 511... deprove till dunno what to say... 3 more weeks to nationals... 3rd week of these 3 weeks is mid yr exams... possible? i dunno... just do my best ba... haiz dunno what else to blog le... jiu like that ba... what's wrong with me...

Btw let me think about how badly i failed these few months...
1. AJC Cheerobics Puma not even top three = didnt win
2. AJ Idol 2007 = Didnt win
3. May Monthly Shoot = Deprove by an average of 0.4 each shot = lousy
4. NUS Invitational Shoot = keep on deproving, drag teammates down...

these are the major ones... the rest i dun wanna mention... will feel even worse... one important aspect of my life - relationally also failed... lost almost everything...

haha...